Started work at Maverick. It's full time (yay) but the hours leave a little to be desired (boo). I'm off Mon/Tues, 6-2 Wed/Thur, and 5-1 Fri-Sun. Lemme just tell you, getting up at 4 AM should be morally, ethically, and legally wrong. Wrong, I tell you! Anyways. Work is busy 95% of the time. It's pretty ridiculous. I only get one 15 minute break, which is a huge difference from the last place I worked at. I hurt and I'm tired, but at least my fatigued and pain is warranted now. =/ Not that there's anyone here to say different or bitch about it.
I had my first adventure in driving in the snow yesterday as well. Came down a hill going 40, hit the snow just right, and went spinning out of control into a very deep ditch. It wasn't even 5 AM, pitch black, and freezing. I called Laura and she came to get get me, but I had apparently drained the battery. It was terrifying; I cried hysterically and couldn't stop shaking. I called into work since we had no way to get me there, came home, and crashed for three hours. I don't ever want to drive in the snow again.
I pretty well can't wait to have a steady income. I set up a monthly bill list last night and until my loan is paid off, it'll be $650/month for just bills and savings. Once we move to Madison, things will be a little different since we'll have real bills to pay there and I'll be pitching in a lot more. I have plans drawn up for two tattoos; one very soon, and another when I graduate from the surgical tech program. These are the pictures my designs will be based on.
The lily will be on my inner left arm and represents growth and development. The caduceus will be on my inner left ankle (probably) and will represent my profession.
But yeah... it'll be nice to have money again. My *own* money. That I don't have to share with someone or have to ask to spend it. Freedom. It tastes... kinda good.
But on that note... =/ Meh. I'm still very sore about this thing with Chris and his going to see Sarah. -shakes head- I may or may not have done something a bit immature and messaged her older brother and said some choice things about Chris and to make sure he stays away from his sister. Yeaaahhh... That got back to Chris and it got ugly. He didn't have a chance to get to me, thank the gods, because I'm pretty sure that would have been a fight with irreversible damage. I'm going to leave him be for the time. I'm sure that he's still greatly angry at me for what I did and I need time to just get over him and move on. At some point, I'd like us to be friends enough where we can talk and RP with each other but I have no high hopes that will come anytime in the near future.
On the note of RPing and him... Before anything, I'd like to share a quote with you to help you better understand where I'm going with this.
"Writers aren't exactly people... They're a whole bunch of people trying to be one person." -F. Scott Fitzgerald
I believe this with every fiber of my being. Being a writer and an RPer, I have a plethora of characters up in my head. They're their own people, with their own wants, needs, personalities, and baggage. To best describe it to someone [read: everyone] not in my head, I have this house. It's a fairly large house, similar to a mansion. I have separate wings for each universe that I write/RP in and in each wing, these characters reside. They interact with each other (and with others as well) and even more so, they talk to me. When Chris and I were together, this is sometimes how we RPed (it's just essentially LARPing) and sometimes one of us would talk to one of the other's characters (I was particularly fond of his Aven and he chose to talk to my Sai because she's the closest to my heart and can get through to me more than any of the others). So before I left, he spoke to Sai and told her that she *had* to support me and help me get through this, because without her, it would be incredibly difficult. Well... There's only one teensy, tiny problem with this. Sai is romantically involved with one of his characters, Draekyn. Not just some fling either; they are both head over heels for each other. And the break up has been very hard on her, and Draekyn from what I understand. And as of recently, she's been pretty selfish and unwilling to help me move on, because she's clinging to hope for Draekyn. So the other night she and I had a long talk. I pretty much said "Suck it up, buttercup, and stop being a selfish wench. Help me, and I'll help you." I'm not usually harsh with her, but I thought a firm hand was going to be the only thing that worked.
SO HERE COMES THE ACTUAL POINT OF MY STORY!
I'm at work today and it's slow at this point so I'm not really doing anything. All of a sudden, Sai starts singing to me. Now, she's not terrible in any sort; however, she's no professional either. She starts singing to me "King of Wishful Thinking." For those unfamiliar with the song, the chorus goes something like this:
"I'll get over you, I know I will.
I'll pretend my ships not sinking.
And I'll tell myself that I'm over you,
'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking."
She didn't say anything after she finished, but I'm fairly sure that it was about Draekyn and she's trying to make me feel better. It was very cute and amusing. I just hope... for her sake... that Chris and I can come to an agreement about them.
And lastly, an update on my 'like-interest' (not love interest because we don't know each other well enough for that). Things with Nick and I... are complicated. At best. We're growing a lot closer each day and it's making things tougher for each of us. The flirting has crossed the line we established (or tried to) once but it wasn't... a big deal to either of us? Hell, he initiated it and I just went with it (although I did fight the urge to at first). He's getting very fed up with his partner and I'm doing my best to be supportive while hold my stance that I'm interested in him. We [grudgingly] made an agreement a few days ago to cut back the flirting and keep a strictly platonic relationship. Yeeaaahh... that only last a few days... -shrugs- It is what it is. I'm not holding my breath for him; as much as I would adore to meet him and see the physical chemistry between us (since we have the rest of it down to a science)... I'm just not sure if that's going to be the ways things go, unfortunately. We'll see...
And so this post ended up being a lot longer than I had intended.. I apparently had a fuckton to say. @_@
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